sigh...why do i give up on my most precious things just to pursue lousy useless alphabets?

i can't bear this i really wish she'd be here with me...i hate this lousy feeling of inadequacy in my own course of study that makes me reliant on assistance from others, so much that i can't deal with problems myself.

now i can't even do things properly. on both sides. sigh..i just miss her so much =(

Its Thanksgiving tonight.

I thank whomever prayed for and wished for my Dad to get well after his heart bypass surgery.

I thank my family for supporting my financially all the way while not making money a problem for me. It kept my mind off wanting to give tuition, and allowed me time for more leisure and other stuffs.

I thank my buddies who stuck through with me the entire year, all the way through Engin Club and FOP season.

I thank my girl, who made life so radically more enjoyable with her love =)

Yup. Back to Ceramics and Dielectrics =D

sigh...am i too demanding to push my wishes onto others...

i don't want to think about it...but it just keeps nagging me how everytime its been rejected when i bring up the matter...i can't feel any security to it. not when it forms my dreams of the future.

i'm selfish. not very perfect, and i'm scared too. i want to know where i'm going. whether there's this path open for me to walk this dream at all..

=(

i dunno why, just walking home across the street i wished someone would just bang me down.

my bloody big mouth never fails to screw things up...=(

Lab report x2
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Final Term Exam x1

Time left for completion : 48hrs

Eddi does a Bankai and Died.

I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.

Eddi Ow
21
NUS Students' Engineering Club
Material Science Engineering
Military Policeman

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