sigh...why do i give up on my most precious things just to pursue lousy useless alphabets?
i can't bear this i really wish she'd be here with me...i hate this lousy feeling of inadequacy in my own course of study that makes me reliant on assistance from others, so much that i can't deal with problems myself.
now i can't even do things properly. on both sides. sigh..i just miss her so much =(
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Its Thanksgiving tonight.
I thank whomever prayed for and wished for my Dad to get well after his heart bypass surgery.
I thank my family for supporting my financially all the way while not making money a problem for me. It kept my mind off wanting to give tuition, and allowed me time for more leisure and other stuffs.
I thank my buddies who stuck through with me the entire year, all the way through Engin Club and FOP season.
I thank my girl, who made life so radically more enjoyable with her love =)
Yup. Back to Ceramics and Dielectrics =D
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sigh...am i too demanding to push my wishes onto others...
i don't want to think about it...but it just keeps nagging me how everytime its been rejected when i bring up the matter...i can't feel any security to it. not when it forms my dreams of the future.
i'm selfish. not very perfect, and i'm scared too. i want to know where i'm going. whether there's this path open for me to walk this dream at all..
=(
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i dunno why, just walking home across the street i wished someone would just bang me down.
my bloody big mouth never fails to screw things up...=(
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Lab report x2
Group Presentation Slides x 1
Final Term Exam x1
Time left for completion : 48hrs
Eddi does a Bankai and Died.
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there's just some times when no matter what you do, you can never do anything right.
that sucks the worst, because now i'm not doing anything right for the right girl...sigh.
i'm a retarded idiot.
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...yep.
so i'm really leaving on a jet plane, just 2 more months down the road. Damn. I can't imagine how life will be like without Mel being beside me when I do things. I'll really miss things back in Singapore..but like what Kiamin told me as what happened back then with his gf, it only takes effort and a steady heart to link two people together =)
its my daily prayer to see you happy every day now...because this whole year away, i only want to dream of you and your cheeky radiant smile..
may everyday left together before this journey be a happy, fruitful one!
and this isn't farewell, this isn't even goodbye. I'll be back.
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I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.
IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
V
I walk down another street.
Eddi Ow
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Peace
a moment of respite
the energy to live this through..