in actual fact, i find it highly amusing, how easily human emotions can be wavered and manipulated to suit one's wants and desires at a certain point in life. how easily someone who was so close beside me could suddenly fit and match the strict standards i've once set for myself simply because...she was there? satisfice at its maximum.
so now i look at the few archives and the horribly dumb things that have happened 2 weeks past. the emotional anchor has ceased its burden substantially, but things that've happened previously can never be rewound back into the wheels of time. i suppose..i guess i can't really stop this giant boulder down the slope all by myself. Yep, anyways hearing from this friend of mine, it kinda put the topic of the week back on her again, on how it happened, why it happened, and how it ended. Nonetheless, i suppose its all about choices, and perhaps about how both of us managed to satisfice to our fiercest desires back then. probably none of us were in the right mind to decide, or were we even in the best position to justify the decisions made, but heck, since we were around, why not give it a bloody try? :P
so very amusing, how humans work.
learning through life's potholes