Fade away..
Monday, December 31, 2007
As the minute hand symbolically struck 12, 2008 was ushered in with cheers of jubilation and excitement echoing all around the neighbourhood. In came the expectations of how I must perform yet again this year, about how I want life to be ideally, and the several wishes that I would hold for the year up ahead..
i don't know what i should do, whether this feeling is worth the risk..
The thing is, this year will be tremendous in all aspects; life in Club and NUSSU will effectively toughen up throughout all its events, with a few projects coming up my way. This semester has the most painful modules in the form of Quantum Physics and C Programming. There's still the ad-hoc project of Spartan to fulfill, one that tests how well we can get our promises made into reality. Its' yet another test this year..and I don't want it to be another potential year of lost causes, of failed objectives and unrealized promises.
i don't dare to let this happen...not to you too..
Its just another year of growing up, I suppose. Sure, everyone's been saying how I've aged or whatnot, but I guess I'm still weaving my way out of the tempest of madness. Prolly I've turned a wrong turn or two along the previous year, but my hopes for this year: to have a smooth ride out of the tornado. China has been a great refresher..and I hope life will smoothen out after this horrible year of losing control of my own life and goals.
why else do i keep on trying to get you attached to others..
Sigh, its a long way to go...and the road's gonna be tough this time round. No more naive, crazy hopes this year for me..just down to earth hopes for a relatively peaceful year in sight.
its simply because i can't lose you as a friend..
On second thoughts, perhaps a room in Kuok this sem would be nice :)
because us tgth now, even as "friends" feels right, alike a fantasy come true
that i don't dare to ask for more, or seek more trouble
because i want to ascertain that this feeling isn't just a fleeting liking
because u've seen so much of my darkest moments and heard my deepest thoughts
that i cannot let you see my weakness anymore nor hear this deepest thought
but this 2008, it seems, that i'm starting to realize what a fool i've been in 2007..

learning through life's potholes

There's a Hole in my

Sidewalk
I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.

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