exams are up ahead in less than 5 days time, and i have a very very bad foreboding feeling this time. Something tells me that this time round, my luck's really run out. I can't seem to absorb as well as the late-exam rushes during O's, A's. Argh...and the worst thing is that I can't focus at all..couple a tough syllabus with a heart wandering off to play all the time. Sigh..:(

On a side note, it feels like everything's changed this week internally. Maybe the spanner stuck in my system got wrenched off, but things in life start to look so much clearer, aims become so much more defined. The things I want to achieve and..the things I want now, feel so much more practical rather than naive and idealistic as before. For the first time, maybe I can stop trying to be Superman in pursuing the things I want.

Well..it isn't a choice, isn't it? I've realized it now..

I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.

Eddi Ow
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NUS Students' Engineering Club
Material Science Engineering
Military Policeman

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