i feel kinda worried thinking of what to do and what will happen in the holidays. guess i'm apprehensive at best...horrified at worst. there's so many unknown factors floating around that will influence life after the exams, its pretty daunting. you know what i mean.
anyways, i want to fly away from this place and leave everything behind. perhaps go backpack in vietnam or cambodia for a month alone..just to get away from all the mess in singapore. i kinda miss the peace and serenity of the mountains back in the tibetian regions already...seems that every semester only does its worst effects screwing around with my psyche. i just want to be alone for a while, away from everybody i know, from this all-too-familiar place and surrounding. i...need to reflect on this rage and the unexplainable plethora of sickness storing up within before this new beginning.
still, i guess i'm duty-bound to be here. i hope i don't do anything wrong or say anything hurtful in the time being. sigh.
if only,
if only,
if only.
i guess its just a dream for now, not an option.
learning through life's potholes