Fade away..
Monday, May 19, 2008
i'm burnt!

burnt as well as burned out, with work and the sun both bearing down on me, its all catching up real fast. I feel old now, so lethargic over the holidays even though its the time things are supposed to be done. This entire week has been...I dunno, peaceful, enlightening, revolutionary, but damned ass-shagged tiring. Of all reasons, I'm picked to be one of the few "ghosts" in our camp fright night *ohman...talk abt karma.* worse off, its those creepy scare factor ghosts rather than the slacker "stand by your side and freak you out" type. Sheeesh.

Well, at the very least, I got my first exam passed last Saturday. I'm well on my way. Forgive me for sounding childish or naive, or even retarded here, but here's one great goal to aim for in my life right now.

*I'm gonna earn my first million before the age of 30!*

okay, it sounds very unattainable, but these few days some of us got to thinking...yman, the bunch of us. somehow it just doesn't feel right, slogging half our lives away just to be under the heel of another bureaucratic ratrace. Personally...I chose this academic path as a backup route: I know engineering will be a support role that I'll not stay in for long, which is why I'm actively pursuing finance and management. Now that there's the impetus, the drive amongst us to step forward, perhaps it might be a correct time to try gunning for something big, to live our dreams, in a figurative way of speaking.

After a year of dithering and wishy-washying my time away, especially on superfluous matters, I want to divert all the restlessness, the latent boredom into something meaningful..something tangible for once. For a long while, I'd like to live a dream that wouldn't end so soon, and perhaps this could very well be the chance I've been waiting for. Yup, I'm not studying my ass off simply to attain a secondary major for no reason. Its all money from here.

And they said, "with money, anything is possible."

I'd love to be able to be the one helping people out with money, rather than effort for the first time.

learning through life's potholes

There's a Hole in my

Sidewalk
I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.

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