i probably mentioned it before; the worst nightmare I can ever have, is to fail in an attempt of romance and yet be discussed as a horror or comedy story in front of the said girl's friends. its crushing, and i frankly couldn't imagine how it would feel like. perhaps, now it does hit hard, especially when i'm holding office doing something where the person in power has to be invincible and virtually no chinks in his armour.
So...like i said, i'm really tired and hideously disgusted with that pathetic mistake. in fact, i HONESTLY didn't know what came over my mind back then, it really was the worst way to tell someone the truth about how you feel, but what's done is done; i'll move on, and watch my step from here on out..
yeap, my work affects the lives of others, and i'm definitely going to do it right. not for myself, but for the people i pledged to help and assist, to the population i've grown to regard as both friends and charges.
for that, i'll wear that shell of invulnerability..and for that, all else shall have to wait...
learning through life's potholes