sigh.

its been a long time, but i really can't stop tearing when i think about dad going for the open heart op and going thru all that pain.. >__<

well, at the very least, the only consolation i have is that he'll get better after the op, but i'll never stop feeling the heartache when i see his scar across his chest..it'll be a reminder to me of how much i owe my comfortable life to him and how he traded his life just to give me all the things i've taken for granted in mine.

I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. Its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street.

Eddi Ow
21
NUS Students' Engineering Club
Material Science Engineering
Military Policeman

hates
weakness
emo
cheese

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